Monday, May 14, 2007
5:26 AM ●

heyy ppl
i've been having really really really bad mood swings lately
so let's see my mood timetable:
morning:happy/hyper
recess:depressed/emo
lunch:happy/hyper
there is sth seriously wrong with me
i have no idea what to do
kay
this is wat happened during recess:
qiao and i went down to get recess
and on the way down she showed me sth jy sent her
i nearly burst at the anger but somehow managed to smile and laugh
then she asked how to reply
and i was like dunno
anyway
we reached downstairs and walked to buy food
then we sat down and began eating
then suddenly qiao took out her phone
and showed me another message
and began whining on how to reply
whining on how he was pestering her
i was going to burst soon
but still kept it to myself
and somehow
i forgot wat i said
but our talking became stony silence
cos i was feeling super angry and sad
and then i suddenly said,
"he's not talking to me and then asks my bestfriend out
how do you think that makes me feel?"
then i just continued eating
and finished and walked up together
then qiao ran into her mortals and started to talk to them
then i walked on
alone
i got back into class
and stood at the door
and stared
then chen ying walked past
and suddenly on impluse
i was like "chen ying, come here"
then she was like "why"
then i said "just come here"
then the next minute i flung my arms around her and started crying on her shoulder
i have no idea what's gone wrong with me
or maybe i do
i try and try to forget jy
but somehow daily reminders such as this cause me to remember
remember
and it makes me so hurt to know that
he's hardly talking to me
and he asks my bestfriend out
i cry out at the injustice of this
or perhaps it is just retribution for liking someone else
but even if you wanted to get back at me
must you do it to my face?
i really cant believe its you.
i really cant.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )