Saturday, May 05, 2007
12:07 PM ●

wat have i done???
i cant believe the heartless person i am
i went for someone else
when i knew that you loved me so much
i hate myself
nothing i do now will matter
for now
i am nobody to you
you wont believe the guilt i felt when i read what you said
but i dont think you care anymore
i know i hurt you so bad
and nothing i will ever do will change it
i feel like slapping myself
argh!
i cant believe that i didnt tell you when i had to
i thought i was protecting you
but i was wrong
postponing the pain will only make it feel worse when you finally feel it
i am sorry
for everything i have done to lead you on
i cant believe myself
and to think that this morning
it was the total opposite
you dont mean little to me
u mean a lot
but not in that way
im sorry.
i took everything you did for me for granted
i know that sorry can never atone for what i have done
even if i said it a thousand times
but i must at least try to delude myself
that you would be better without me
much better.
go find someone else who would treat you as you deserve it
who would share your pain and sorrows with you
i am not worth your love
at all.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )