Wednesday, December 19, 2007
1:20 AM ●

sighs
the anger phase has passed.
now im just lying down on the floor, staring up at the ceiling
wondering why.
why im actually like that.
do i need to change?

last time i used to tell my sis :
"if they want you to change, then they're not your true friends."
maybe times have changed and its time for me to tell my sister differently
"if all your friends want you to change then maybe you really do need to change, maybe you have some flaw in your character that wasnt meant to be accepted be anyone. maybe it was there because god wanted you to learn to change, to adapt to the times. just maybe."

but i still think.
true friends should accept you for who you really are
and not who you pretend to be
sometimes i really think that i am truly really myself only when im with my sis
i can be who i really am
spastic dumb and just myself
not pretending to be some girl called michelle
who's hyper and blah and blah
watever you guys think i am.
at home i can cry when i want to
act dumb when i want to
even be spastic just to hear my sis and bro call me
" !quito"

i used to hate hearing what people thought of me
cos i was scared that maybe they hated me
but pretended to be my friend
for... well, watever reasons they had
but now
i guess i just gotta accept that
watever people think of me
it doesnt affect me
i'll soak up the truth like a sponge
then
if need be
cry and forget all about it
and wake up to a brand new day.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )