Monday, February 25, 2008
8:13 AM ●

im feeling very deep-ish now
thanks to reading christopher pike's book the eternal enemy
its damn deep
i took sometime to understand it
but its great
the main idea is that
what if humanity could be altered to become cyborgs
and the cyborgs were created by your grandfather
and gradually the cyborgs were to wipe humanity
because they are too kind, they believe to be human is to suffer
therefore they must end our suffering
the cyborgs cannot be destroyed
and our future is one without humanity
there is no way to alter this future
but the main character sara
kills herself in order to be a cyborg, to go back to the past
to kill the man who was to create these cyborgs
her grandfather.

what happened to her when she was in the past i shall not tell you
shall not be a spoiler
but the book,
is just great
if you want to read it you can tell me
i'll bring the book for you

nothing happened in school today
just that on the way back i nearly crashed into some riverside sec 3/4(?) guy
some beng-ey looking person
damn
he came chionging down the stairs with all his groupies
didnt see me
and stopped himself just in time
heng
but you didnt see him cursing like hell
like that damn girl who called me cb
damnher.
w/e
i shant care.

i realise that i contradict myself alot these days
i say i dont care
but somehow i really just do
i try not to care but its just there.
i hate myself
hate my life
hate this.
somehow reading books absorbs me into another world
where i can feel safe and protected from reality
until the book ends
then i fall hard back into the harsh truth again
i tell myself i cannot avoid it forever
and so i need to solve this
so i can relax
and never have to think about this again.

were you just toying with my feelings?

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )