Friday, February 01, 2008
9:11 PM ●

ohmygawd.
somebody save me.
i dont know what's wrong with myself
my whole world just tipped itself upside down again

i think of you every waking moment
from dawn to dusk
my thoughts are clouded over by you and you only
there's not a single minute that goes by where i dont wish i were with you now

i hate this!
its like im crippled without you
i will myself not to think but i cant!
its as if someone has planted a everlasting picture of you in my mind and i cant get it out
i push my fingermails deep into my skin
trying to bore out those images but i cant!
droplets of red drip ever so slowly onto the pure white tiles and yet
you are still there.
i hide in a corner hugging myself
refusing to eat or sleep
hoping that the torture would rid me of your thoughts but no
sleep isnt even an escape
my dreams are nightmares with you

somebody save me
the pain is
so drilling and now there's a hole in my heart
i feel like just sinking below the surface of the earth and never resurfacing again
i dont know when
or how
but somemore i find myself in the peat bog that is filled with your memories
and im sinking
deeper and deeper until im smothered by the peat bog
and i am no more.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )