Sunday, April 13, 2008
7:35 PM ●

yesterday night was the worst
i was hit with 2 problems at once
and i really couldnt take it anymore
and broke down.
it was the time where i cried the most
and where i tried to stop crying and couldnt
maybe i guess it was due to the building pressure as well
or maybe not.
but i want to leave all these behind you know?
start a new life
and have everything go my way
the way i want it to
but that's not possible.

x, you know it happened once, twice before
please dont let it happen a third time
i really dont want it to happen
i really dont
because if it does
i... i wont be able to take it.

y, i know you care for me
more than i know
but now you're not acting like you're caring
why do you defend her
i dont know. i really dont.

why do things like these keep happening to me?
what did i do to deserve them?
does the problem lie with me?
do i need to change?

so many questions..
and i've no answers
no one is going to give them to me
and so im going to find out
by myself
and this time
there will be no distractions.

why dont you know that i love you so much it hurts like im being stabbed every second?

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )