Tuesday, August 26, 2008
9:14 AM ●

im trying.
i really am.
trying so hard to please everyone
to make everyone happy
but no matter what i do
its never enough
everyone will never be happy with me
they just dont see
how much im trying
they never do.

no one ever notices if i cry
no one notices if i break down
no one is there if something happens.
and i know
that no one will notice if i disappear forever.

you dont know
dont see how much
im trying
so hard
by my means
to make you happy
to try and make you believe
believe me.
but it doesnt ever work
and then i ask other people for help
to help me
for you.
and you wont ever know
because you never see me as i see you
as someone who matters so much that when you hurt, its 10 times worse for me.

and you
you dont see
how much i've tolerated for you
how much you matter to me
you dont believe me either do you
otherwise you wouldnt have questioned me
questioned what i had said.
you wouldnt have.
too bad.
i was naive to think that you'd actually believe me.
what a joke.
how much i care for you
so that each time you hurt me
i forget it in the end
and now
all because of one stupid sentence which was misinterpreted
you hate me.
since you dont believe.
i cannot do anything else
but to watch as you drift away.
i have nothing left to say.

i have given so much
i can hardly remember when i've taken
when it used to be that i took and gave at the same time.
people want more and more
and i
have nothing left in me to give
my heart and soul have long been given away.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )