havent blogged in eons but i always write when i have this rush of emotion

so pardon me while i spew nonsense that no one is gonna understand but me.

the choice was mine and yet i made a choice that would hurt the both of us.

i find myself questioning if i made the right choice

i didnt want us to be just left with memories of arguments, hate and pain

i didnt want it to reach that stage where there would only be pain left and no more love

do you understand?

it hurts so much to know that you're gonna move on without me

but you're probably feeling the same way.

i want you to be okay, but at the same time to not be okay because i dont want to suffer alone even though i brought this on the both of us.

funny how i made the choice that seems to be right but the both of us are in pain now.

as i sit here sobbing my broken heart out, i think i now understand why i was so afraid to lose you

please dont think i made the choice because i didnt love you anymore

i love you, more than anything else in the world, more than i even realised i did and that's why i have to let you go now.

be free, explore the world, and one day, if your heart still loves me, come back.

i'll be waiting.

havent blogged in eons but i always write when i have this rush of emotion

so pardon me while i spew nonsense that no one is gonna understand but me.

the choice was mine and yet i made a choice that would hurt the both of us.

i find myself questioning if i made the right choice

i didnt want us to be just left with memories of arguments, hate and pain

i didnt want it to reach that stage where there would only be pain left and no more love

do you understand?

it hurts so much to know that you're gonna move on without me

but you're probably feeling the same way.

i want you to be okay, but at the same time to not be okay because i dont want to suffer alone even though i brought this on the both of us.

funny how i made the choice that seems to be right but the both of us are in pain now.

as i sit here sobbing my broken heart out, i think i now understand why i was so afraid to lose you

please dont think i made the choice because i didnt love you anymore

i love you, more than anything else in the world, more than i even realised i did and that's why i have to let you go now.

be free, explore the world, and one day, if your heart still loves me, come back.

i'll be waiting.